Clothing and Selfhood
with JC Manalo
JC, I love you, and I love your approach to dressing– I will not even say dressing UP because the word ‘dressing’ feels more settled in which I feel best suits this conversation.
When we sit down together, clothes naturally make way in our conversations. We gush over pieces, purchases, desires, growing up. Being envy of this, dreaming of that, etc. etc. So I know for a fact that clothing plays a big role in who we are. It does not define us, or maybe it does in some capacity, but it’s almost like an armor, don’t you think? It’s a cheesy metaphor, but in the game of life, you can acquire pieces, upgrade them, and it makes up your character.
I want to talk to you about clothing and selfhood. I know you’ve gone through growing pains again and again, and it does feel like you landed as someone who is beautiful and imperfect and is accepting of that. And your acceptance of it shows through the ways you express and restrain yourself in clothing, specifically.
Tell me more about this, please. Does this statement sit well with you? Please contest any assumptions I make.
When we sit down together, clothes naturally make way in our conversations. We gush over pieces, purchases, desires, growing up. Being envy of this, dreaming of that, etc. etc. So I know for a fact that clothing plays a big role in who we are. It does not define us, or maybe it does in some capacity, but it’s almost like an armor, don’t you think? It’s a cheesy metaphor, but in the game of life, you can acquire pieces, upgrade them, and it makes up your character.
I want to talk to you about clothing and selfhood. I know you’ve gone through growing pains again and again, and it does feel like you landed as someone who is beautiful and imperfect and is accepting of that. And your acceptance of it shows through the ways you express and restrain yourself in clothing, specifically.
Tell me more about this, please. Does this statement sit well with you? Please contest any assumptions I make.
What I have observed from the past year is me prioritizing comfort way much more. I mostly go for linen and cotton pieces for daily wear and I had to look for footwear that can last my feet the whole day, since Singapore involves a lot of walking. I must admit that shopping became my stress outlet at some point, and a part of me felt hypocritical for someone who tries to be a ‘minimalist’ but looking back, it was an unexpectedly rough journey and I respected that season of adjustment. Thankfully, most of them are purchases I do not regret!
When I moved to Singapore, I was thinking of just being my usual self; carefree and laidback– but being in a new workplace in a new country, I found myself pulling back my style to wear a different armour. I camouflaged so I wouldn’t be noticed. I was surviving, but it definitely did not feel right. It took more than a year, but I am happy to say that I am slowly circling back to myself.
Second is my Black jacket from Karl Lagerfeld’s Chanel cruise 2002 collection. It was one of my first big-boy purchases with my own money, and my high school best friend Sara brought it from the US for me. I had a Chanel-obsessed phase back then and I would research so much on the house’s history, so finally having it felt like a big win for me.
Third piece would be my mom’s beige jacket that I stole from her closet. It is a cropped jacket with slightly puffed sleeves, detachable hood and a funnel neck. It has traveled so much with me, I can dress it up and down, fits really well, and somehow, I always get asked where I got it from. I would say it’s the best jacket I own!
What do clothes say? by Shahidha Bari - Aeon Mag